Yes, it’s a very They Might Be Giants kind of day here. Grey, kind of cold looking. I need some of the boys to perk me up. Plus, nothing speaks to me of summer days long past like Flood. I’m learning many things that (of course) I’m beating myself up for not already knowing, though. It’s great to learn new things, but disconcerting, too. Sometimes, it’s fun to be put out of your comfort zone, but I seem to spend more and more time there. At some point, I just want to have a whole day where I can feel like I have a clue and some value. Now, I realize that this is completely self-flagellation on my part, as opposed to reality. I don’t need a pat on the back or reassurance from others (today, anyway). I just need a day where I have a sense of accomplishment. It’s no worse than the flailing about that goes with any new job without particular structure – you have to find your own way. It takes time.
But, wow! I am one impatient chica!